At first I did not want to pursue writing as an everyday job, pay thousands of dollars for a college education and then have only a few copies of my book sold in a local bookstore. But then I realized the only reason why I did not want to is because I was afraid of failure, and I still am.
Now I am just going to embrace the fact that it is going to be a pain in the butt to have my book written, edited, and published.
I feel that having failures in your dreams are what makes it a real thing. Just imagine only having a thought of what you want to do and have everything handed to you. You did not do anything! And to be honest, what is the point in calling that a dream?
I know a lot of people are asking me why I even want to become a writer. I cannot follow a deadline, and if I do it is because I got nervous and it was at the last minute. I get writers block all the time and freak out because of it. My grammar sucks. So many things can go wrong for me and all I can say is BRING IT ON.
I want to be a writer because I can finally have my words to be out there. You know how awesome it would feel to walk into a bookstore like Barnes and Noble or Books A Million and see hundred of copies of what you created for not only for the world but for you too? I would cry more than I already do when I walk into a bookstore.
What I think is amazing is I am not the only writer who would have to go through that. J.K. Rowling was turned down by twelve publishers and was unemployed for five years until she became a millionaire. Now of course I would never be as creative as J.K. Rowling but she is just an example as to why I really want to write my own books.
I want the failure. I want the publishers to say no to me. I want people to love and hate my work because I know that when that day comes I can finally call myself a writer.
These are not the only reasons why I want to be a writer. I want to be a writer because I find my ability to write a whole other world and get tangled in it very therapeutic. Whenever I had a bad day, I would put my headphones in, listen to classical music or different playlists I made and write a scene for my book that I have now been working on for six years now (still not finished).
My inspirations have always been fantasy novels and fantasy authors. I am always a sucker for supernatural romances so of course I would always thank those authors to give me the strength to create my future and be a writer as well as for the fantasy creators.
I have always been fascinated by how someone could create something other worldly and share it with the world. I want to inspire kids to write just like how my favorite authors did for me. I cannot thank my favorite authors enough for the inspiration they gave me. All because of you I know what I want to do with my life and I am going to get it!
