Happy 2020

And we party hard

Like its a new beginning

Wanting to leave bad vibes in the past

Hoping to make the good times last

And as everyone raises a glass to their lip

She has me fucked the hell up before i can even take a sip

And as the bullshit starts to unwind i see why glasses are raised up to the sky

While im falling down my mind pummeling

Constantly wondering

Heartbroken among other things

As to why I'm the game that gets played

when i gave her a taste of just how good the victory feels.

I guess i can see why everyone drinks til they're destroyed on this supposedly magical day, cause standing here, right now,

Holding my chest like a salute

When I'm just trying to keep my heart in place

As i try to pull myself up the steps of recovery

I see why they say at least the only way is up

New year new me sounds really fucking great

For these wounds to be perfectly fresh

instead of last night's party plate

I fall in too wishing for a "happy 2020"

Cause that happy part…

Fuck...

Im desperately needing