Happy 2020
And we party hard
Like its a new beginning
Wanting to leave bad vibes in the past
Hoping to make the good times last
And as everyone raises a glass to their lip
She has me fucked the hell up before i can even take a sip
And as the bullshit starts to unwind i see why glasses are raised up to the sky
While im falling down my mind pummeling
Constantly wondering
Heartbroken among other things
As to why I'm the game that gets played
when i gave her a taste of just how good the victory feels.
I guess i can see why everyone drinks til they're destroyed on this supposedly magical day, cause standing here, right now,
Holding my chest like a salute
When I'm just trying to keep my heart in place
As i try to pull myself up the steps of recovery
I see why they say at least the only way is up
New year new me sounds really fucking great
For these wounds to be perfectly fresh
instead of last night's party plate
I fall in too wishing for a "happy 2020"
Cause that happy part…
Fuck...
Im desperately needing