I am not a huge celebrator of Christmas, but I do appreciate the meaning behind the holidays. The holidays are a way to bring family together and to enjoy the company of those whom you love. Presents are under the tree, lights glowing the dark streets, and the warmth of the fireplace fills the living room. Many say that I am the Grinch of Christmas, but it warms my heart when I have the opportunity to spend precious time with my friends and family. I love being able to give meaningful gifts to those I love, but this year I have decided to give myself one. This year, my ultimate Christmas present, is peace and clarity going into the New Year.

I think I can speak for almost everyone when I say that 2016 had a lot of ups and downs. When the moments were great, they were so wonderful it felt like a dream. When things were down, they were so low it was almost unbearable. The happy medium was the days where it seemed like tomorrow would be okay and the world around me was happy. I grew so much this year and I am very thankful for all of the ups and downs, because without them, I wouldn't be as strong as I now am. 2016 was an amazing year in whole; love, graduation, college, growing friendships. This will defiantly be a year I will look back on for the rest of my life and smile at. As for the New Year, I have so many new expectations.

The days leading up to Christmas were rocky, but I just know the days after will be so much better. Peace and clarity. That is what I see in my future. Without one, I cannot have the other. I will have peace so that I can go through each day calm and relaxed and not let stress get the best of me. Peace will allow me to engage in self-care and make sure that I first, before anything else, am happy and healthy. Clarity will give me a clear view into each day so that I can look at the world through every perspective placed in front of me. It will give me a calm mind and a healthy body. Peace and clarity are all I need to pursue my goals in the upcoming new year.

My ultimate Christmas present will finally be allowing myself to focus on me. For too long, I have been consumed with making sure I put other's happiness before my own. I have come to a revelation; I cannot help others through struggles and hurt until I manage my own. Peace and clarity will allow me to focus on what is important, my health and sanity. I am forever grateful for the growing pains that encompassed 2016, but I am optimistic and excited for what comes in the New Year.

Happy Holidays everyone, may your days be merry and bright.