So I have just celebrated being on this earth for two decades and I still don't know how I feel about it. I am know TWENTY years old and that makes me excited, but scared, but weird. I don't really know what to think about being this magical age that truly signifies adulthood. With all these thoughts going around in my head, I made a list of them. These are Twenty Thoughts on Turning Twenty.

1. I'm getting old.

Twenty years. Just wow.

2. I'm entering what many claim to be the "best years of my life."

Will these actually be the best years of my life? I'll check back in ten years.

3. I'm no longer a teenager.

This is still getting to me because being a teenager means that you have an excuse to do stupid things because you are a teenager. "Twenty" just sounds much more mature.

4. Life is becoming way too real, way too fast.

First it's twenty and then it's twenty-five and then it is forty and time slows down for no one.

5. Is it possible to have a quarter life crisis?

I think I'm having one right now.

6. I still don't know how to change a tire, or do my taxes, or finance a car.

I feel like an adult in their twenties should know this.

7. I'm almost halfway through my college experience.

This goes back to life coming at me way too fast.

8. Has anyone ever described turning 20 as a gateway?

To me, twenty is the gateway to adulthood. People have to take you seriously now because you don't have a "teen" at the end of your age.

9. I'm staring down the rest of my life.

There is just so much to do.

10. Why do I feel so old?

I'm only twenty, but I am acting like I am five times older than that. I'm just a drama queen about my age.

11. I should learn how to start a savings account.

I should.

12. I still have friends in high school.

I have friends who are in high school and here I am in my twenties. This is just strange.

13. I can't be a "reckless teen" anymore.

I wasn't really a "reckless teen" to begin with, but I'm really not anymore.

14. I didn't get a cat yet. So far, so good.

I have a preconceived notion that in my twenties, I will have to drink a lot of wine (in one year, of course) and have a cat. It might be a rite of passage.

15. Do I really have to start dressing like a normal person?

Wearing leggings as pants is the greatest thing ever and if I have to stop because I have to dress like a "normal person" I will throw a fit and refuse.

16. I have seen the coming and going of two decades.

It is super weird to think that I have been on this planet for two decades. In these short twenty years I have seen so much.

17. When is it appropriate to delete my pictures from sophomore year of high school from Instagram?

Will there ever be an appropriate time?

18. But I'm actually really concerned about this tire thing.

Like should I actively be learning?

19. How can I be an "adult" if I get phone anxiety trying to order a pizza?

I don't make phone calls ever without a ten minute pep talk to myself.

20. Dear lord, I'm old.

Just wow.