I've always been insecure about myself; I've always had bad anxiety, even though I never knew it was anxiety, it was still there. The constant feeling of never being good enough for anyone or never being good enough for yourself. Growing up with a mother who had mental health problems as well, never helped either. I always felt like her problems were more important than mine, well they were, I was never diagnosed and she was on 5 different medications for it. Now she is switching medications and her problems are more important than mine again. I feel like I'm always responsible for her being upset, I feel like it's my job to make her happy; I feel like I can't be upset because she can't handle it. I need verification from my friends, that it's okay to be upset and that my problems are just as important as her problems, even though I'm not diagnosed. I need constant reassurance that my friends want to hang out with me. I need to know that they still want to be my friends and that I'm not annoying. They always tell me that they love me, but I'm scared they just don't want to hurt my feelings. I am working on being better at loving myself; it's hard, but it's happening.