This is a letter to the girl who feels that trying to be the best version of herself is never good enough.
Do you ever feel that even though you try so hard to be perfect, you never will be? I feel that way all the time. It's like you try to be this role model and you feel like you're failing all the time.
I try to be this ideal human but there is always something I am doing wrong. I try my hardest to please everyone. I would rather make everybody else in my life happy and be completely depressed than see them upset. I want to see smiles on everyone's face, then, I can put a fake smile on and maybe it would all be okay. It's not OK, though. I am never good enough, or so it seems. There have been countless times where I have been told that I am good enough. The struggle is trying to believe it because, well, I can't. I feel like I mess up way too much to ever be good enough. I want to be the good daughter, good friend, good worker, but I feel as though I fall short more than I succeed. I am about to be a junior in college and I work two jobs, but sometimes I feel like that doesn't matter. No matter how good I try to be for my friends or my family, I feel like all they are going to see is the failures and what I didn't do right. So the way I see it is why even try to be good anymore? Why try when the good will never outweigh the bad? But I can't make myself let go of that feeling of wanting to be good enough so I pick myself up off the ground and wipe off the tears and keep moving. That is really all I can do.
You just have to pick yourself up and brush off the dust and move on. I know you're strong, and you've probably handled worse. Let me tell you something, though. It will get better. You will realize that you are good enough. You are a good daughter, you are a good friend, you will be a good wife and a good mother. You will be good enough. You will be beyond good enough. Those people in your past, the ones who made you feel like you weren't good enough, will not matter.
You have to just walk with your head held high. You have to know that as long as you are trying to further yourself in life, no one can say anything to you. You are what you believe. So start believing that you're pretty awesome because (guess what?) you are!
Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. Swim through those rough waters that we all call life, girl. Keep your head above water. I believe in you.
