"When you know, you know."

It's a phrase I have heard my whole life, mostly with the expectation that I will walk into a crowded room, make eye contact with a tall, dark, handsome boy, and then “you’ll know.” Or whatever.

Well, what if, the phrase applies to more than just meeting the love of your life? What if we don’t give our gut enough credit? Because sometimes we know, but it’s more about admitting it to ourselves.

I think we have expectations for ourselves, ideas of how we want our lives to turn out, things we have planned, goals, aspirations, and dreams. It’s one of the most basic human characteristics.

But what about when things don't go as planned?

Coming into college, my expectations were very different. The things I thought I would be doing and who I thought I would be are not how things have turned out. And I think I always knew that they wouldn’t. I just didn't want to admit it to myself.

I personally believe in God and the plans He has for us. A lot of times, I am certain that He tries to show us what He is trying to do, but we as humans, being stubborn, don't pay attention. He was doing that with me, for longer than I realized. I’d like to think, that even if we did things our way, somehow God would get you back to the life He wants for you. Sometimes, it’s just easier for God to say no and we just have to find the faith that He knows what He’s doing and that He is right.

I think for me one day it just clicked, like finding the last piece of a puzzle. What God had been pushing me to do just made sense. Yet again, His timing was perfect because five months ago I wouldn’t have believed you. In fact, I would have said no. Looking back though, I can see what He was doing, I can see why things happened and that there were signs all along.

I think we can realize we actually knew from the beginning what God had planned for us. He had a dream for me I didn’t even know I had. It’s shocking and hard to wrap our brains around. I often like to forget my gut reaction. I forget what I said initially, and thankfully God brings it rushing back, reminding me that in my heart I knew.

Yet again, I can see that God was faithful, that He did things I never thought He would do. So maybe we shouldn’t just expect “to know” when we meet the love of our life. Maybe we don’t give our gut enough credit and actually know more times than we think we do.

All and all, trust your gut, trust the bottom of your heart because God doesn’t give you dreams by accident. It’s just a matter of us believing in them and believing in ourselves. When you know, you know.