I was on the phone a few weeks ago with someone, and she asked me a simple question, that I typically don't put too much thought into, it was a simple question "how can I be praying for you this week?" I have a lot of Christian friends so that question pops up a lot of times, but when I answered her, I realized that I had to make some changes in my life. My answer was "to help my trust in God, I trust Him, but only with certain parts of my life, I want to be able to confidently trust Him with everything."

I forgot that I have no power and that I cannot do anything on my own, without Him. He is the one that wrote my story and knows what is going to happen in the days to come, while I am left here still wondering. On Friday, I realized, that it's time for me to trust God with EVERYTHING.

I hit rock bottom Friday night. I felt scared, and I could not see a light at the end of my tunnel. It was then when I realized that I was not trusting God. Fear creeps up in our lives when trust is not present. When God told me to trust Him with my future I knew that I should do just that, but there's a certain about of uncertainty that comes with placing that trust. But the comforting thing is that we are placing our unknown future, into the hands of a known God.

It has been an uphill battle every day trying to get to a point where I can confidently say that I trust God. When we trust God, it gives us a better sense of freedom because I don't have to worry about what is going to happen. I can surrender everything worry to Him knowing that He has my best interest in mind.