I'm the member of the group that you can always find crying. Last time I cried? Probably 5 hours ago to be truthfully honest. My fish died that I had been mothering for 7 months and I was not emotionally ready to handle it. I get attached to things extremely easily. Even to a thing I just watch swim around back and fourth in a bowl for hours on end, how extremely boring right? But now that I have an empty fish bowl sitting on the counter, I realize how much I truly valued what little connection I had with a fish. I'm totally aware this sounds outrageous.
It's not that I go off and cry for attention. I just have a lot of feelings that I can't keep bottled up. The truth is I'm over emotional (at least I can admit it, right?). If you've never met me before I am truly sorry that this is your first impression of me. Dear future husband, I promise I'm not always a mess. To my future children, I'm sorry I will burden you with the genes of hella emotions.
Cute dog video? Someone dies on the tv show I'm currently binging on Netflix? Or a book that has an insane plot twist? I think about something totally irrelevant to life over the past few years? Yup. You guessed it, I'm crying about it. Wonderful right? Now just image how bad it can get over something that's actually worth being upset over. I literally cry all the time. All. The time. Now if tequila is involved you best bet I'm ending the night crying over Toppers pizza in my room, on the floor to be exact, watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days.
Trust me, if there was a way to control this, it would be. But nothing makes it worse than when I'm starting to get emotional, someone asks what's wrong, then I get upset because others can see I'm 'I upset and also because now I'm trying to rationally explain why I'm choked up. I absolutely hate the attention that comes with it.
Just like those who never cry, I have enough tears to go around for all of us. So HOOORAAAAHHH to all of us dealing with our sh!t, in our own individual ways. Now, please, I have a fishes funeral to plan.
And now I'm crying about it.
