I came out to my friends a year ago and I never thought that a year later I would be on testosterone. So technically I am doing a lot better than I thought I would be doing. I know that I'm really lucky to be on hormones and have the support that I do but it just feels like I should be seeing a lot more physical changes than I do.

It's been almost four months since I started hormones and it feels like nothing is happening. I don't know if it's because I don't sound like James Earl Jones (I don't want to but there aren't any changes in my voice) or if it's because I don't have a full on beard yet. The only changes I've noticed is that I'm hot all the time and upset that nothing else has changed.

I know that the road ahead of me is long and hard and transitioning is a lifelong process but it just feels like I should be moving faster. I'm so thankful that I'm at least on hormones so that the process has started.