They say you'll never fully realize you were in a toxic relationship until you've been out of one for a long while. You could have friends point it out to you on countless occasions, but you still have yet to see what is right in front of your own eyes. Once you begin to realize it, you tend to remove all the negative aspects in your life and replace them with positive ones.
After a few days, you realize that you're feeling a billion times better- when you cut ties with a toxic person overall. Whether you decide to do something "sinful" to try and distract your mind from all the overthinking you've done, you realize that you CAN do it. You start to become an unstoppable force.
As long as you start to have faith and hope within yourself, you're able to overcome any obstacle in the way. You can achieve what you want in life once you begin to learn and let go. Being in a toxic relationship is something that nobody sees coming. It all takes time to even begin to realize that someone is toxic.
Whether they become that way due to someone hurting them that badly and messing with their head, or from some other issue that they may have been facing that has messed them up mentally & emotionally. Nobody deserves this either.
I myself had suffered from a toxic relationship. I couldn't see the signs, but many of my friends could. I wasn't sure of the signs or anything, but distancing myself from it now shows me them. I was basically kept with tabs, and little trust was given. I focused on making myself better coming out of this.
Sometimes it still gets to me. Other times, I brush it off. But I can honestly say that I am so much stronger and better off than I was. Focus on something that you want to improve and let go of all the negativity from a toxic person.
You'll feel a lot better in the long run, it just takes time.