I would've never thought in a million years that you would put me through all that you put me through, but you did. Those brown eyes and that smile hid your manipulative and lying self.
I was head over heels for you.
In my eyes you could do no wrong... And man, was I mistaken.
We had some good times, at least I thought we did. At the end of the day you chose to break my heart. Apparently for you, I wasn't enough. I wasn't good enough. I gave you my all. I was good to you. I gave you the world.
I had plenty of guys who wanted to be with me yet I chose to stay with you. When I look back to what we had, I know that I should've ended things with you sooner or I should've never given you the time of day in the first place.
I'm a simple person, the littlest things make me the happiest. All I wanted was for you to let people know that I was your girlfriend. You couldn't do that one thing for me.
It seemed as if everything I did for you was not enough. I gave my heart to you and expected the same in return but I guess that was too much to ask, huh? I wanted you to love me as much as I loved you.
But hey, if what we had was love it would've never failed, right?
In the Bible it clearly states, "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
I can't remember times that you made me smile. I can only remember the times that you made me cry. That's not love. You'd never take the blame anyway.
So many people were noticing all that you were putting me through and telling me but I didn't listen. I was stupid. I look back and wish I could smack some sense into myself.
With all that being said I want you to know that I forgive you. I forgive you, not because you deserve it, but because I do.
I've learned what I deserve, how strong I am, how much love I have to go, and most importantly... To let go.
Thank you for cheating on me. Thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you for making me realize my worth.
God only knows how much I did for the wrong person.
I can only imagine what I'll do for the right person.
I'm ready and I hope he is too.