This is it.

I have given you second chances time and time again. I have no more second chances left to give, even if you did actually deserve it this time.

The story is the same every time. One lonely night, and you call me, needing me. I answer because I always do. In my head I know answering leads me down the wrong path, but it’s you and I can’t say no and we both know this well. We talk and everything is ok. One thing leads to another and here we go again, down the same road we always go down with every sign that looks the same, and yet I’m always lost. In my head I know I can’t handle what is left to come, but my heart can’t let you go. Even though there’s nothing wrong yet, I’ve learned that there will be because you’re at least consistent at that.

Every time you suddenly leave you take my heart with you. After you leave I have to learn to piece what’s left of my heart back together, and no matter how hard I try, it never goes quite back to normal. I can’t keep letting you do this, letting you come in and out like a revolving door as you please and take my heart that I’ve worked so hard to piece together. I can’t keep taking steps back when you need me, because it always hurts me in the end and you walk away unscarred. I know I said I would always be there, but I can’t anymore.

My heart still might always want you, but I’ve learned and my head has become smarter then my heart. I can’t keep giving you second chances, hoping that this time it will be different, for it to only end the same way it always does. It’s my turn to take my heart and find someone who will piece in back together the way it was before you shattered it time after time again. I can’t keep giving you second chances, because my heart can’t take another second chance. This is long overdue, but today I’m making the promise to myself, no matter how hard it might be, no more second chances. It’s my turn to find happiness and I can’t do that handing out second chances.