To my friend: I want to say that I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I wasn't in time to stop you. I'm sorry that I didn't have time to remind you of the people you were leaving behind. I'm sorry I didn't tell you that it wasn't worth it. I'm sorry I didn't remind you that you were beautiful inside and out. I'm sorry that I didn't silence the voices leading you to do this. But most of all, I'm sorry I never asked you to stay

I don't blame you for leaving, I just wish you would have trusted me to help you. I don't think you were selfish, I just wish I had been able to help you. Nobody blames you, we all just love and miss you so much. I wish a lot of things right now. I wish I had put more effort into our relationship. I wish I had taken an effort and not just passed you by. But most of all, I wish you were still here. Most importantly, I wish I had a chance to say goodbye.

To my friend: I want to say thank you. Thank you for your genuine heart for others. Thank you for the love and warmth you poured into other people's lives, including mine. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for letting me be your friend. Thank you for letting me into your life

Words can't express right now how I feel without you. I miss your smile, I miss your laugh, and I miss your heart. I miss your warmth. Warmth I wish I had shown back to you.

To my friend: I want to thank you for everyone here. Without you, they are lost, and I am lost too.

To my friend: I miss everything we did. I miss our road trip with others that I wish I had been able to do again. I miss your jokes and I miss your infectious laugh. There's too much to put into words what I wish and what I miss.

To my friend: what if I tried harder? What if I made an effort to understand you? Would you still be here? I don't know, and now I never will know, because you're gone.

To my friend: I was looking forward to all of the stuff you were wanting to tell me. I was looking forward to seeing the CREW's biggest supporter at the events. I was excited to hear about your wedding, if you were ever going to tell me about it. I would have told you about my wedding, because honestly, you would have been the first to know. I would have wanted an invitation, and I would have made you cry with the toast. Instead, I'm brought to tears at the memories of what should have been and what could have been.

To my friend: I wish I told you that it would matter without you here. I wish I had told you "Don't leave." I wish I could tell you how many people do care without you here.

To my friend: I don't know how I feel. I feel empty and hollow without you. You truly had a personality no one would be able to match. I don't think anyone here could take your place. I don't think anyone could try.

And why should they? Why should they try to replace someone like you? No one in years could even bother to try.

How long will it be until next time? How long until I see you again?

I guess I won't know until it happens.

To my friend: From the bottom of my heart, I miss you and I will always love you. Until next time, this is goodbye.

Rest in peace, my friend