The desire of wanting to be good enough for someone doesn’t come lightly, let alone painless, let’s be honest. You start to question things about you. What if there is something I am doing wrong? Am I just simply are not good enough? That agony does something to you, emotionally and or physically. Every time you feel that excruciating pain,another piece of who you were is gone.
We strive for that one person, so much that risking everything for them is worth it. Despite the fact that they would never do the same for you. You commit to that person,yet in reality you’re just a doll in their dollhouse.They only play with you when they become bored as a result of them knowing you will be right there for them.You give them everything and they rip it from your hands.They go around breaking hearts just to see what is in side. They take everything your heart can offer and feed it to their pride. You then start to realize that they don't see it. They don't see that you had given your whole entire life for them. You go through hell because of that person and yet you still somehow want to be with them.
They take your heart, those unfulfilled promises and walk out that door without you, leaving you with just memories and a heartache. Somehow you still want them to be happy and yet you do not truly understand as to why you want them to be happy. Especially with all the pain they have put you through. Sometimes you just have to say that you want them to be happy to try and move on but nevertheless, deep down inside you still want to be their happiness that they perceived you were to them. But the best thing you can do is just travel on.No matter how far you go, you cannot change that person.
Some things in life are predictable. It's puts your mind to rest for awhile that things turn out just the way they are indeed to be and finally move on. But in life, more often than not, the universe pulls the chair out from under us. Leaving you to self doubt everything. From the bottom of their heart they tell you that their sorry for everything they have put you through. That they never meant for any of that to happen.That they should’ve took more responsibility for their actions at the time and they didn’t.
They don’t truly mean any of those words, because if they did, you wouldn't be reading this today. Sometimes the only thing left to do is to just walk away like they did countless times.You let them in, and they completely destroyed every little piece of you. But it’s okay, because it will all come back around one day.Just remember; you’ve always been good enough, you just might have been giving the best parts of you to the wrong person.
