Hey old friend,
Honestly, I don’t know what to say to you. There are so many things, but I just can’t find the words. I’ve wrote this a hundred times, trying to get it just right, but I can’t.
Let me start off by saying I miss you. The old you. I miss the old you more than I think you will ever know. I know that people change and drift apart, but I honestly never thought it would happen to us.
I want you to know how much you’ve hurt me. You haven’t really done anything wrong, but the past few months, you just haven’t been there for me. You stopped making time for me. You stopped texting me back when I needed you the most. You made me feel like I was a burden to you. You couldn’t even find time in your day to wish me a happy birthday. I know you’re busy, but so am I. I would do anything for you in a heartbeat and I still will to this day. It really hurts knowing that you wouldn’t do the same.
I’m sure I’ve hurt you along the way too, so please accept my apology. I know that I’m not perfect and I can be annoying. I’m sorry if I ever forgot to tell you how great you were. I’m sorry for all my sassy remarks that made you feel small. That was never my intention.
I don’t hate you. I will never be able to hate you, nor do I ever want to. I have shared my deepest, darkest secrets with you. You were a huge part of my life. You helped me through some of the roughest times and I will forever be thankful for that.
No matter how far we drift, please know I will always be there. I don’t care if we haven’t spoken in months, even years, please, if you need me, call me. I will put the past aside and help you like I used to do. You will always have a special place in my heart.
I will always be your biggest cheerleader. I want nothing but the best for you. I pray for you every night, that you have a life filled with success and happiness, even if that means I’m no longer in the picture.
Finally, I want to thank you. thank you for the late night heart to hearts and listening to me rant on and on about the same old stupid things. Thank you for being there for me when I had nowhere else to turn. Thank you for reminding me how great I was when I thought differently. Thank you for the memories and thank you for the tears.
I will always love you,
Your old best friend