You came into my life at a time where I was busy finding myself. A time where I often felt stressed, and would get annoyed at the littlest things. There were days where I wouldn’t talk, or I would ignore you, and you would get angry and think you did something wrong. Eventually instead of sticking with me, and being the person I needed, you left. You just walked away.
I’ll admit, I was hard to handle. I had an attitude and there were some days where you would just make me so mad I wanted to never speak to you again. I often would come to you with my silly problems, and seek your advice, it was because I trusted you, and I trusted you would be there and get me through the bad times. My mistake.
I often look back on that time and wonder if my life would be different if you decided to stick around. From the short time you were a part of my life, I cared about you, I cared about your happiness, and I often worried more about if you we’re okay, then if I was. I was willing to be the person for you that I wish I had. But, you gave up, and I’m sorry that you did.
I am sorry that you left because look at me now. I am happy, I am content. I put my all into everything. I make sure that the people in my life are happy. Sure, I went through a rough patch, I was so close to giving up on myself just like you gave up on me, but I didn’t, I didn’t because the other people in my life wouldn’t let me. You were just another bump, and I’m thankful for that.
Don’t get me wrong, I was sad when you decided to run away, but now? I don’t really care. It’s not because I don’t want to care, it’s because I can’t care! I couldn’t keep caring about you because I knew I wasn’t even a passing thought in your life.
You’re just like other people, you missed out on a good person who could make your life great, because I was a little difficult, because I apparently cared too much, but hey, the good ones never come easy. If you would have stayed and put up a fight and broke down my walls, you would’ve known that.
Thanks for leaving when things got bad, thanks for bailing when I counted on you. I hope one day you look back and think about the choice you made. I hope you see how happy I am, and realize that I was that good person that could’ve made your life great, but you’ll never know because you ran off when things were rough. Next time, remember, the good ones never come easy.
