To the Person I almost lost to Suicide,

I can remember that night clear as day, I can remember seeing you passed out.

I remember cutting the rope, I remember holding your lifeless body in my arms. I remember crying and screaming and then I heard you take a breath. That was the best sound I have ever heard in my 19 years of being.

I remember seeing the ambulance carry you away, as I sat in the snow crying asking myself what I could have done different that night; so you didn’t feel like that was your last resort.

I can remember that drive to the hospital, I had never been so consumed in my thoughts. “Was there something I could have done?” “Why didn’t you think you could talk to me?”

They say you never realize how much someone means to you until you almost lose them, right in front of your eyes. That statement has never felt more true.

I almost lost you that night, I can’t picture my life without you. Why would you do this? Do you realize how many people love you? You have such and strong amazing impact on people’s lives. How could you leave that? How could you leave me like that?

I’m glad God was on our side that night, because I can’t lose you. I just can’t.

To the person I almost lost to suicide, please don’t feel like you can’t talk to me, don’t feel that you’re alone; I promise you aren’t.

I hated seeing you in that hospital, I knew you were in pain. It hurt me knowing I couldn’t take your pain away. I could never understand why you did what you did, but know even though I may not understand, I will always be there to listen.

To the person I almost lost to suicide, please come to me next time you feel like ending it; this world isn’t ready to lose you.

That night changed me forever, I will never take things or people for granted. I will cherish every moment I have with my loved ones. I will cherish those corny family nights, with playing board games and listening to the oldies. I will live everyday likes it’s my last because you never know when it’ll truly be your last. I will always be there to listen to whomever may need it. I will always lend a helping hand, because that one gesture may mean the world to someone.

To the person I almost lost to suicide… I love you! Please get stronger; if not for yourself, for me.