You are living each day connected to a thread of hope that you will find that stability that once made you feel so whole; but the thread is wearing thin and it feels as though it might snap and you may even lose yourself completely. You romanticize this idea of predictability and wonder if it's something you'll ever find.

You see, sometimes you get caught in these weird transitions in life that keep you questioning your own worth and then you begin wondering if that worth even existed in the first place or if it was something you fabricated with that thread of hope you connected to. Maybe this is a one-time inconvenience, maybe it will happen again, but whatever it is, you convince yourself to keep moving forward.

Some of us, it seems, go through phases like the moon. Times of feeling full and feeling invincible, but then there are other days you feel the need to fake your feelings because you're only half there. Then there are those points where you feel overshadowed-- everything is dark on these days and you're sucked into an ebb of emotions trying to make it to tomorrow without drowning. These phases would be more manageable if they worked like moon; but unfortunately, not everything in nature is completely predictable, at least not in human nature.

Sometimes it's a person who triggers this feeling of instability -- a circumstance, or maybe nothing. You just have to remember to keep gripping that thread of hope because life is changing so quickly. Maybe you're supposed to feel lost so that as you're searching for yourself and stumbling over mistakes you will fall into the acceptance that life is never what you expect, it just is and maybe you're not lost at all.