In all honesty, I've been wanting to write this for a while, but I also knew writing it would be completely hypocritical of me, due to the mental state I have been in for such a long time. I feel like I have been begging to find the motivation to get through this semester when the motivation has clearly been inside me the whole time. Considering we're three weeks away from the end of the semester, I thought this would be the best time.
If you've been like me, and have been waiting for that motivation and how to push yourself to try your best, I swear it's in you. It is also in the friends and family that want you to do well. I cannot express how much my friends have given me this motivation without them even knowing. Because somehow, being with the people who care about me and make me the happiest, shows me that I have purpose.
Find those people that will motivate you without even having to try. Find it in yourself to know how much you want something and how successful you want to be and let that push you to do the best you can. You deserve a break once in a while so you do not burn out, have those "lazy days" when they are absolutely needed, but then get up, get out, and try the best you can with everything you do.
It takes a while, but soon you will learn to open your eyes, come back to reality, and make the realization that sometimes you have to change your mindset of whatever you may be dealing with and the only one that can help you change that is yourself.
The progress I have made since the realization that this ambition to be the best me, will only be found in myself is unbelievable. What you can realize when you open your eyes and see the power you have within you and how much you need or want something is amazing.