They said choosing a career that makes it feel like you're not at work would be easy, right? Walking into my freshman year of college, I exuberated such confidence in the choice of my major, but now I am not so sure. I doubted those who told me I would want to change my dreams more than once. I felt such passion for writing, connecting with others, and creating media content that the idea of graduating with a degree in Communication seemed flawless. Little did I know the journey I partook through college was going to shape me into a completely different person than when I started.
As I look around my peers, almost everyone I know is trying to obtain a degree that involves giving back to others. They choose to sacrifice their time and effort into helping those in need. Not only are the hours they work lengthy and difficult, but they put on a smile the entire time. I always believed in the importance of giving, but obtaining a career in that field felt improper for myself. As a freshman just trying to find where her classes were on campus, I could barely even take care of myself let alone the lives of others. I spent many nights trying to better myself and achieve excellent grades that I got lost in the idea of focusing on myself.
Now, as a student going into her senior year in the fall, I feel differently. I am envious of those who get to have a career that makes them feel worthy and truly impacts the lives of those around them. They get to come home after those long hours and truly feel as if they did something to positively impact society. Unlike my career where I would only being sufficing my idea of only benefiting myself. The idea of changing who I am and what I have always believed I wanted to do is absolutely terrifying. I'm sure I'm not the only one in this case. Never in a million years would I have thought I would be here stuck trying to find my passion in life. Although it isn't going to be easy finding something I have a true drive for and involves giving back, I am ready to become someone who I have always wanted to be. Someone who takes a step back and does whatever she can to help those around her, not just her. Someone who isn't stuck behind a desk all day and waiting for the weekend. Someone who feels accomplished every day knowing they did something good. It's time for me to take a risk.
I have officially become one of those lost college students who doesn't believe their degree is sufficient and suits them. Instead of feeling negative about this, I am hopeful for the future and excited to take the chance to find who I have always wanted to be. For those who feel the same way I do, know you're not alone and that everyone does happen for a reason in life.
