I hope you know what they say is going to hurt you. It's going to break you apart, and you're going to want to disappear. There will be days that they will make you feel so useless that you can't function, where you hardly want to get out of bed. You will sometimes find yourself having no other feeling left in you, but to cry. You just want to hurt from somewhere else, not your heart anymore. They never thought of your feelings before. Crying isn’t a sign of weakness; crying is a sign that you are alive and can feel.
I want you to know they will pick and pull everything they have about you out, and spin them into a web; just be thrown back into your face. They are going to point at you and whisper behind your back. This could be about your clothes, your ethnicity, your identity or your religion. If they see you holding hands with your boyfriend, they will use that as a weak point because for some reason "different" is hardly welcomed. Let me tell you though, be different. I want you to be you and stay true to that person. Be stronger because you ARE stronger. You have it in you to pull through whatever hateful things are done or said to you. When people pick on the “weak” it's because they are ashamed of who they are. They are jealous in a sense that you are able to be stronger and be yourself. You walk down that school hallway, and you hold his hand proudly. Hold it tighter because he might need it more than you. You will not become a victim to their words. I hope you know that some days will be hard but your fight will be harder. It's sad that we feel the need to fight to be ourselves. This is a fight that will never be finished business, but it will be better when you win. You are an incredible person. You aren’t lost you, just have to be found. I know you want to give up, but you’ve got this, and you can pull through. I know this because nine years ago, I was you.
I was the girl that sat alone at lunch. The one who was pulled apart. I was picked on for being adopted, being in a Jewish family and being “different”. I was the punchline to every homophobic joke. There were days I wanted to run away from it all. No one wanted to listen, so I’m here to listen to you. I’m here to tell you that you are better than them. You are unique & strong, and you can overcome this lonely feeling because, you are not alone.
You will overcome this feeling of invisablity. You will come out on top. Right now, things might seem even harder because we are dealing with one of the worlds biggest bullies but, HE is only temporary, and we are forever.
