Every girl has a point of innocence and passiveness, until that one guy comes along to change that.
You were my first real relationship. It started when I was a sophomore. I was gullible, innocent, and just really wanted to be accepted at this part of my life. We met and my heart just melted for you.
Nearly three and a half years later, the same girl, you knew, had changed physically, emotionally, and mentally. After a considerable amount of damage to my self-esteem, trust, friendships (that were lost) and other emotional issues that ended up needing medical attention, I found out who I was, how I wanted to be treat, and what I deserved.

So thank you, for controlling my every move.
For making sure I was with my friends, texting you, with no other guys there. After so much time, I realized that in a relationship there has to be trust. Unfortunately, making sure that I was miserable every time I went out with my friends is not really trust. I wasn't even "allowed" to have a Facebook because of the fear of private messaging other guys.
GIRLS: Social media is a right and unless you both agree to have a shared account, you are your own person. You should be able to hang out with your friends and have a good time. He doesn't need to be around 24/7 or texting you to make sure you are REALLY there.

Even though you were allowed to do whatever you wanted-
Because unfortunately, until my sophomore year in college, I tried to believe you were the person for me. I made myself think that there was nobody that could ever treat me better. I made myself sick and mad from how much hatred that my heart grew for you over the years.
And just a piece of advice to everyone, if your significant other is worried, jealous, and controlling about certain aspects, maybe it's because they are trying to be the victim of a crime they already committed.

Thank you for lying to me
Or in other words, "going around the truth." From day one it was all lies and unfortunately you just so happened to meet the girl with no self-esteem that would put up with anything to get attention at 15 years old. After finding messages, text messages, pictures, and pretty much anything you could think of, I still stayed around, but thanks to you, I don't put up with that anymore. Cheating and lying is not okay in my book even when it surprisingly was when I was in high school. I realized that anyone willing to lie to me about everything they do doesn't deserve my time. I'm worth the truth and nothing but the truth.

Even when I told you the truth
It was not good enough. But you know what wasn't good enough? What my mom told me, and also every one of my friends. You. You weren't good enough.

Thank you for cheating on me...
The whole time we were dating. I found out after I graduated high school that you were screwing around with one of your so-called "friends" that acted like one of the guys.... And about five other girls that you thought it was okay to sneak around with or sext. It was good for you that it took me that long to find out.

Thank you for showing me who my real friends were...
Because at my worst, I should have friends that support me and love me. Friends who will stay with me through all the silly decisions I make just because at that minute, I will be happy. I saw who my real friends were and the friends that didn't come through for me. And it's OK, I know what I deserve.

Thank you for making me cry
Without the hurt and the pain, I would have never changed into the strong girl I am now. The girl who knows what she is capable of and what she deserves. The girl who doesn't have to worry about what she's doing so she doesn't get yelled at or start a fight. I avoided the fights at all costs until the end when I couldn't take it anymore.

Thank you for all of the mean texts and social media posts...
Because it not only showed me what type of guy you are, but it showed everyone else that you're okay with trashing a girl- real mature, huh? No girl should take verbal abuse or mental abuse. It's the same as physically hitting her.

Thank you for convincing me to come home
You influenced my decision to come home to commute at YSU. Even though we broke up not even a month into summer break, if it wasn't for you, I would have not met the amazing friends I have or the love of my life. I personally think that choice was the best one I made. YSU is so right for me and now I have two jobs and a house. If I would have stayed away at college, I would not have been able to have the experiences I've had at home.

Most of all, thank you for making me strong
After three years of smiles and tears, I figured out who I was. I became someone who accepted herself and knew it was okay to be single. Since being single is so much better than being in an unhealthy relationship. It also showed me what to look for in a guy and that it's really okay to be picky. So when it took me the next two years to find someone I didn't want to punch in the face, I knew this guy was my prince charming.

But I hope you've at least changed
Or found someone you truly have feelings for that made you not want to lie and emotionally tear them apart. I hope you find that girl that fits you because we both know that we didn't have as much in common as we convinced ourselves we did.

Because I have...
I've changed so much and I think that's what really throws a guy off is when a girl goes to college and changes. College changes you. Life experiences change you. You were a unique life experience that I'm thankful for, but definitely do not want back.