I get it. I really do. Your planner is your lifeline right now, and it's hard to not check it 24-7. Mine looks exactly like yours does, color coded and organized to perfection. Every day is meticulously written out so nothing gets left behind. It's a lot to juggle right now, but you are trying making it work.
Last month, I had a full on meltdown in my tiny Tut dorm room. I had forgotten an assignment, which I ended up receiving a zero for, as well as a meeting that I HAD to be at. I sobbed because I felt like I couldn't keep up and couldn't juggle everything that was going on in my life. I had too much squeezed in on that little date line in my planner. I couldn't physically do everything I wanted to, and it genuinely broke my heart because I wanted to do absolutely everything in college that I possibly could.
At that point, I was making sure I was waking up early every day for breakfast at the sorority house and leaving so late at night because I didn't want to miss anything (FOMO for sure). College was so new and exciting that why wouldn't I try everything? What I didn't realize was what doing everything was doing to me.
I was unhappy and SO tired. My grades were slipping, and my heart was hurting. I was no longer the bright-eyed freshman I had been in August. I was exhausted and snappy but it was okay because I was at everything, right? Wrong. I was pushing myself too much and hadn't seen the effect that had on me.
I had to realize that it's okay to sleep in if you need it, or say no to that party because you need to study. I had to learn to manage my time more wisely and prioritize what I needed the most. I had to learn that my new friends would still be there, even if I said no. It was rough at first to miss out on things, and I felt like I was punishing myself. In reality, I think I saved my sanity.
So to the girl who has her planner filled, it's okay to erase some things. The world will not end if you don't go. You'll be okay. Trust me. I get it.