You are. I swear in my heart that you are. If there’s anyone who deserves love, it has got to be you.
I know you. On the outside, you’re happy and smiling and joking around with everyone about everything, but on the inside, you’re an absolute mess of thoughts and emotions. You feel like there’s no one in the world who could possibly love you and not be lying about it, because that’s all anyone ever does, right? They lie, and they lie, and they continue to lie because it is all that they know.
Over the years, you’ve been hurt so many times that it’s hard for you to trust anyone. In your mind, even the sweetest person ever could become someone who will hurt you because as soon as you trust them with something personal and private, they may just expose you for the complicated chaos that lives inside of your soul.
Don’t worry about it. Don’t worry about any of it. Those who aren’t meant to be a part of your life won’t matter five years from now. They will be just a tiny bump on the road of life that you’ll pass by without a second glance because they don’t matter.
You deserve just as much love as anyone else does, and there’s no doubt about it. Everything is eating you up on the inside, but it’s time to let it go. There’s no need to hang onto the thoughts and memories that hurt you because they are going to keep on attacking you for as long as you think of them. Trust me, I know. The more negativity you keep in your life, the more it will drag you down until you can barely pick yourself up off the floor. I’ve been there, and it’s not as much fun as you might like to pretend it is.
Just let it go. Let go of that negativity and surround yourself with puppies and kittens and most of all, love. Let the love of other people into your life. Take a chance and be too trusting. If someone hurts you, then it obviously wasn’t meant to be and that is perfectly fine. You can let them go, and in a few decades, you may forget everything about them.
You deserve so much love, so much more than I can give to you. If I could, I would give you the moon. Let your peers love you, and you can love them in return.