To the girl who was told she wasn't enough,
You are not alone. You gave your heart to a man who you thought needed it the most. You gave your soul to fix the one of the man that you loved. Day in and day out, you loved this person with all of your heart, soul, and being. You accepted his past, his present, and his future; you did it all for him, but it wasn't enough for him to stay. No matter what you said or did, it wasn't enough. Through the tears, fights, the curses, the name calling, the mocking, and nights spent crying yourself to sleep alone, you loved him. Even with all that love, he continued to destroy you and your self-esteem. He constantly told you that you were boring, annoying, and stupid. He told you that you were replaceable. He told you that his feelings could disappear in a blink of an eye, and he constantly reminded you that he can find another girl in a heartbeat. He told you that what you did was never enough. He cheated, lied, used, and abused you. And now you're left alone questioning yourself and your worth. How was I never enough when I was giving my all? What can I do to make him see my love? Will I be enough? How can I prove this to him?
Truth is, you have nothing to prove. Sometimes, people seek happiness in the demise of another. Why? I don't know. But one thing that I do know is that you are worthy of ultimate happiness and true love. When he left, I did not think that I could live without him; I thought he was everything to me. We talked everyday for two years, being in a relationship that was built on an unstable foundation. I thought I loved a man that treated me as the dirt on the ground. As time passes, you will realize that he was everything that was wrong for you. It was the hardest thing for me to realize; but once I did,I was me again. I began to smile more, my heart hurt less, and I was able to see my worth. I began to believe that I was enough again. And it's true, you are enough. With time, you will find the man that believes that too.
After a breakup, it's easy to lose yourself within the feelings of regret and the thoughts of "what if." However, it's important to understand that you deserve a man who loves you and shows it, a man that holds you and never wants to let go, a man who never puts you down for the fears you have,a man who loves you just as much as you love him.
To the girl that was told she wasn't enough, you are strong. You are beautiful. You deserve the world.You are enough.
Love,
The Girl Who Was Always Enough