To the girl who survived,
I watched as you slowly lost your happiness. It wasn't all at once. You were the new girl and so you still had that "new girl" vibe. However, it only took months for the signs to show. First, you stopped eating as much as you did, then, you stopped eating lunch. You made excuses, always that you had snacked in your previous class. We were naive, we believed you, rather, we wanted to.
You started to look sick, it wasn't the stomach bug sick, it was the kind of sick you never want to see, self induced. I remember you first letting your story be known, sharing the picture with us. I could count every rib. That was the day it all made sense...the day you came out and admitted to the world that you were fighting anorexia.
I remember you clinging to Demi, she was all you had it seemed like. No one was allowed in, not even family. You always posted encouraging words, always posted song lyrics and then one day...they stopped, it all did actually. I remember the post, the post that you were fighting for your life, the life you had tried to end. You didn't succeed though, thankfully.I remember your long road to recovery. It was hard, watching you struggle, but I was just so happy to see you survived.
I remember you posting the video, the video where your now husband got down on one knee. The joy in your face, I was happy you survived. I remember seeing the photos from your wedding day and crying because I could now see why you survived. You were needed to make a family complete. Speaking of completing a family, I remember when you posted the photo, you're pregnant!
To the girl who survived, I know that at the moment it happened you weren't, I know that in recovery you weren't, but I know now that you are...happy you survived!
To the girl who survived, you were right, you had Ana but Ana did NOT have you!
If you feel like you have no option, please know that suicide is not the only way out. Please, reach out to someone anyone or call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline: Call 1-800-273-8255
If you struggle with an eating disorder, please reach out, someone is wanting to help. https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-suppo...
