To The Girl Who Doesn’t Need To Be Fixed,
First of all, let me tell you I’m proud of you. I'm proud that you are reading this right now, and understanding it. Recognizing that you are not a project for someone to fix. Recognizing that there is nothing wrong with being self- sufficient and standing on your own. Recognizing that at the end of the day, you can do this, you will do it, and no one can do it for you.
I know you feel like the world is always watching you. When you don’t eat they wonder if you’re having a bad day and need to ask you a thousand pointless questions. When you sleep until twelve they wonder if you’ve fallen into a depression, never thinking that maybe your just tired. When you do ask for help they think they have some magic cure to “fix” you, too bad that a myth. They feel the need to constantly remind you that you’re not damaged goods, and put value on you and everything you do. The smallest thing gets rewarded, CONGRATS you got out of bed today.
In no way am I discouraging people being there for you. Because the truth is you need those people, they are so important. I’m just stressing the statement that you are not someone’s project. No matter how many times they tell you “it will be okay” you don’t believe it. They won’t understand why you don’t want to go out all of the time, but they wish you would. They want you to be something they can cure, they want you to wake up one day and say “well wow I feel better.” I don’t think it works like that, I don’t think you can wake up one day and try to feel better.
See that’s what you need to understand, sweet person trying to fix us. We want to feel better just as much as you want us too. There are days when I would give anything to wake up and have a great day. To smile and laugh until my stomach hurts, but the truth is sometimes I can’t. Sometimes I literally can’t, and I need you to accept that.
I want you to understand one more thing sweet person who is reading this. I know I am beyond blessed to have people who care so deeply about me in my life. And I wish that I could give them everything they want, but sometimes it’s just too hard. I beg you not to give up on me, please don’t push me away because I can’t always give you what you want. I am not a project to be fixed, I am simply trying my best. I know you don’t need to be fixed but you do need to understand one last thing. If not today, or tomorrow, or next month, or even next year eventually you will be okay. It is not going to be easy, it is not going to happen overnight but you can do it. I believe in you, in all that you are, and know that one day you will look back on this situation and know that you made it.
