The girl that just can't seem to leave me alone. She used to be my best friend. She used to be the friend that I would go for anything. If I had a bad day, I went to her. If I was excited and happy, I went to her. Things change. People change. Times change. It's not my fault that I grew up and faced reality and she didn't. It's not my fault that I don't like the person she is anymore. It's not my fault that I don't enjoy her company anymore. I don't have to apologize for this, because it isn't my fault or hers. With this being said, I don't understand why she still has such a big interest in my life and my whereabouts.
It is okay to grow apart. It is okay to not be friends with your best friend anymore. It is okay to dislike them a little bit because you are no longer in their life and you miss them. It is NOT okay to talk badly about them every chance you get. It is NOT okay to have people check to see if I am where I say I am. It is NOT okay to be blatantly rude to me when I try to make small talk. If you didn't want to talk to me, then why are you near me? Talking about one of our mutual friends?
I just get so annoyed and upset because it is not my fault that we are not friends anymore. It is not my fault that you left me in the dust for your boyfriend. It just bothers me that someone that used to me so close to me would knowingly hurt me over and over again by making negative comments. Why does it matter if I'm at work, Why does it matter if I'm home? Is it really your business? If we are no longer friends, why is my life any of your concern? I just don't understand how someone can be so concerned with how I'm spending my time if we are no longer friends.
I just want to be left alone. Leave me and my choices alone. I am not your concern. I am not your friend. I am not your acquaintance. We are too far gone to ever be as close as we were again. I can't help that. Neither can you. I'm sorry. I shouldn't feel bad. I do, though. Again, people change. Times change. Things change. That's just how it is.
