Dear _________________,
When high school ended, most of us thought we were forever going to friends with our high school best friends. It only made sense; you have probably known these people for most of your life, so obviously you are going to stay in touch. But, as you already know, that is not the case.
So, to you all, I want to apologize. I was excited to go to college and make new friends, but I was unwilling to forget our memories. Over the summer before college, these memories were what we held onto as we prepared for freshman year. I didn't know these memories would be almost all I would be able to remember about you.
The first week of college was fine. We were texting back and forth about the new friends we were making and complaining about our dorms. Stories about roommates, cute people, and how "college is so fuckin' fun" crowded the group-chats and Snaps.
At one point, though, it seemed as if we had run out of things to talk about. It wasn't if college was boring; if anything, we were all busier than ever before. But, was that a good enough excuse? Everyone's busy at times, but could we have tried harder to text each other? Why did we run out of things to talk about? In high school, we were talking each other all the time about the most mundane things. So, why couldn't we in college? Suddenly, only the craziest hookup story and stress about exams transformed into late night texts.
Maybe we couldn't text back about those regular things because they were so different now? We didn't wake up at the same time, have basically the same schedule, weren't surrounded by the same people, weren't doing the same homework assignments, etc. On the surface, it seemed as if we were all so similar still: all college students struggling to make it through freshman year while dealing with being homesick. On a deeper level, some of us were so different. Some of us changed, some of us started doing things we never thought to do before, etc. At some point, we started disagreeing about what was cool and wasn't cool. We started judging each other silently for not keeping in touch, for suddenly being "so different" and "unrecognizable" from what we were like in high school.
But, I hope you are not mad. I hope you realize that we all started our own journeys. Of course, this is not an excuse for what happened. But, I hope you can understand that even though I didn't stay in touch as much as I wanted to, I didn't forget about you. Just because I am more in touch with other friends than I am with you doesn't mean I don't want to talk anymore. I think we are all just stuck in a mindset of "What could we even talk about?"
Feel free to text me anytime, but I promise I will check up on you once in a while too. We all still care about each other. After a couple years of college, I think we can move past this awkwardness.
I still love all of you, and all those group-chats are still on GroupMe. It's been some time, but there's so much to talk about.
Love,
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