I understand that people grow apart. I promise, I do, I just wish that it had been mutual.

I wish that both of us had been giving the same time and effort to the relationship. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe you were trying, in your own, special way and I just didn't see it because I wasn't used to it. Or I couldn't see it because gradually, as time went on, you cut me out of your life. Slowly, but surely, you did. I just wish I knew why.

Is it because we didn't really have the same interests? Is it because I can get really intense and over-excited sometimes? Or is it because whenever you asked me for advice, I was honest and you didn't like it?

Part of the reason I'm having so much difficulty letting our friendship go is because I know how amazing you can be. You're funny and smart and a genuinely good person. And you don't even try most of the time--you just are. And that's one of the reasons that I fell into friend-love with you. That's why I invested so much time into our relationship. That's why it hurts so much to say goodbye.

But I knew I would have to. I could see it early on, I just chose to ignore it. And I'll admit that part of this is my fault. I latched on when I shouldn't have and tried to save something that wasn't worth it.

And none of this is to say that you're a bad person. I'm not trying to insinuate that you intentionally did any of this to hurt me or break me or whatever else. You just weren't a good friend to me, in the end. I'm sure there are people that you are super close with and that you really vibe with, and I'm happy for you. I am. And I wish you all the best.

This is just me finally, and officially, breaking up with you. This is me transcribing my emotions so I can let go and move on to bigger and better things.

I don't regret any of the time that we spent together. I don't regret trying so hard. Even if it didn't work out, I proved to myself that I did everything in my power. I showed myself that I am strong and can build myself back up when there's no one around to help.

So, this is goodbye, Friend.