The first man a girl is supposed to fall in love with is their father.

The relationship between a father and a daughter is just as important as the one with the mother and daughter. A father teaches his daughters what kind of man they should be with, what makes a good man, and everything in between. Not that you haven't taught me those, but things are different.

Because of our lack of communication, I'm terrible at communicating my feelings.

I'm always scared to say whats on my mind, especially to you.

I don't like getting close to people or people touching me. Even a pat on the shoulder makes me shiver.

Yes, that's because our relationship has weakened.

You were the light of my life. Every second of attention I got from you would make me smile from ear to ear.

Road trips with you to grandma's house were the best. Yodels and twinkies give me nostalgia to this day.

You were the one and only man in my life.

Then, something changed.

I don't know if it was because I got older, or because I was simply not your little girl anymore. I don't know. All I know is that our phone calls are nothing anymore.

I can't even call them conversations. There more of a script. "Hey, how's it going? Yeah? The trucks good? Okay, I love you bye."

That I love you is as empty as it gets. Yes, I know you love me. I know that I'm your little girl. But that I love you isn't backed up by anything. No father-daughter dates, no working on cars together, nothing. All we have are empty words.

Again, I know you love me. That's not the issue here.

I always envied my friends relationships with their fathers - they're always being overly lovey and embarrassing, or they're always willing to go somewhere with them just to spend time with them.

I want us back. The dad that lectured me about the smallest things that I'll always remember. The dad that would always say yes when mom said no. The dad that always made me feel like a princess even though I was (most of the time) a brat.

Maybe one day you'll wake up and realize that our relationship is nothing that it used to me. Yes, you're my father and you always will be.

But that father-daughter relationship is almost gone. We can rebuild it together, but it takes two to tango. I cannot be the one thats always reaching out and always make an effort. I have a life too.

I have feelings that you directly affect with your actions. The smallest word can tear me down.

I really wish I knew why we are the way we are. I wish I knew how to fix everything and make everything come back to normal.

I'll always love you, no matter what. But I wish things were different.