"You didn't want Heaven without us, so Jesus You brought Heaven down. What could separate us now?"
Let me start by saying Jesus loves YOU. No matter what you have done, where you have been, or what you have been through, Jesus loves you. Every little thing about you is intentional and you were made specifically in God's image. No sin could ever make Him see you any differently. You are His child and were created for a purpose.
I've always been the person who made all the right decisions. I never did anything stupid and my mom never had to worry about me or what I was doing. Then senior year of college hit me like a hurricane and everything changed. I suffered loss greater than I could have ever imagined and I took a downward spiral that I was afraid I would never recover from. There were days I didn't think I could even get out of bed. Then I was introduced to the "bar scene" and that's all it took. I used bars and alcohol as my escape from reality, and in my little pea brain I actually thought it was working. Then one day, I found myself in a situation that could have ended tragically and that was when I knew something had to give.
I realized the thing I had pushed away throughout this period of grieving was the only thing that could help me--JESUS. I felt unworthy, ashamed, undeserving of Jesus and his mercy. Jesus couldn't love someone like me, no way, not after everything I had done in the past month or so.
WRONG.
"Blessed are those who are poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven" Matthew 5:3
Little did I know, I was exactly where God needed me to be. It took me being that low in spirit and stripped of my pride to realize that I am nothing without my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am here on this Earth for His will alone and I did the unthinkable and tried to take control of my life. My life is not mine to control. Let me say that again, my life is not mine to control. My life belongs to Jesus and my purpose in life is to do His will and bring as many people to the Father that I can in my short time here.
"We are foreigners and strangers in your sight, as were all our ancestors. Our days on earth are like a shadow, without hope." 1 Chronicles 29:15
So often we focus on our happiness here on Earth and what would make our lives the best they can be. However, we need to realize, this is not our life. My time here is like a mere shadow compared to the eternity I will spend worshipping Jesus Christ in Heaven.
Remember these points:
1. JESUS LOVES YOU and was sent to the Earth to save each and every one of us from our sin. No sin is greater than the love Jesus Christ has for each of us.
2. You are worthy and deserving of God's mercy.
3. Our time on this Earth is a grain of sand compared to the eternity we will spend with Jesus.
4. It's never too late to give your life to Christ and live for Him, TRUST ME.