It's been a while since we talked. I see you around, I hear about you and I know how you're doing. It breaks my heart to see the person you're turning out to be. I pray every night for you, just for the Lord to keep you safe and out of harms way. Sometimes I get angry not because we aren't together or because you're happy but because I pray every. night. for you to be safe and it's like God isn't listening. I know He hears me because I beg for Him to lead you in the right direction and forgive you because we both know this isn't who you are. You're not this type of person--well, you weren't.
To the boy who once was the sweetest person I ever met.
We were each other's firsts. First boyfriend/girlfriend. First person to come meet the family. First love. I remember thanking God for putting the most loving, sweetest, caring person in my life for my first love. I remember our first kiss like it was just yesterday because I still get the same feeling just thinking about it. That was the most nerve wrecking moment ever, especially when your little sister was watching us. Our first kiss also brought our first New Years Kiss of three. You were always so caring and never wanted to hurt my feelings even if you were joking. I still admire you for always putting me first no matter what.
To the boy who once was my best friend.
I miss you. I miss telling you all of my stories that happened throughout the day, even if I had just seen you the day before, you still listened even if you hardly cared. You'll always be my best friend because regardless of our relationship status, you still are the only person I can tell everything to. I miss going to the movies with you. I miss you calling me a baby because lets face it, I might just be the biggest baby ever. Most importantly, I miss you being here for me, and being my best friend.
To the boy who once was the love of my life.
Not once was, still is. I still love you, I still want the best for you and I still want to see you happy. I remember the day you told me you love me. We were arguing the night before and we barely talked all day but you didn't let that stop you from telling me how you felt about me. I understood how hard it was for you to tell me because you've never been an open person, and that was our downfall. Both too stubborn, too proud and too closed off (more so you because I'm an open book) I can't even explain the feeling I felt when you told me, but to this day I'm so glad it was you I fell completely in love with.
Sincerely,
The girl who always will love you
