It was just so easy for you, wasn't it?

Talking to me. Flirting with me. Getting me. Loving me. Then...leaving me. Like it was just a normal cycle of yours.

When I was with you, everything felt perfect. And maybe it was just a little too perfect.

You could make me laugh by just one word. You could make me smile with just one look. You could make me feel better with just one phone call. It only took less than two months for me to believe that, yes, this is love. He's the one.

Before you, I was lost. I didn't believe that I was able to find love. To find someone that can accept my flaws, my annoying habits, and my insecurities. Someone that would actually want to deal with my crazy and weird self, and still want to love me 24/7. I was lucky to have found that person in you.

I was on Cloud 9. I found myself smiling at my phone all the time whenever you texted me. I would sit at work and find it less dreadful knowing that I would be talking to you later that night. And even though you were hundreds of miles away, I knew that you were mine and that I was yours. I felt like everything was going right, and that all the broken pieces in my life were slowly coming together.

Until that day.

I hate the feeling when you know something is just.. off. I knew that last night was a little off between us, but the following days did not get any better. The messages lessened. The "how's your day" texts lessened. The "I miss yous" lessened. The "I love yous" lessened. And I understand.

People become busy. But if it had been working out for the past two months, how could it just be different? Some reassurance would have helped, but you gave me none.

I thought to myself, long distance is hard. I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt. So, I supported you. With everything I knew you were going through, I wanted to be there for you through it all. Because that is what relationships should be like. A shoulder to lean on. Your rock to help you through those hard times. But, you knew I was going through difficult times too. Where were you when I needed you the most?

The silence. What went from a few texts a day telling me that you would call, went to zero texts. No calls. No response. No noise coming from my phone, but yet it felt like there was so much noise going on in my head that it felt like I was drowning.

And you were the ocean who did that to me.

It was like you came in waves, only choosing to show effort sometimes. No matter what I said or did, I still overwhelmingly drowned over you. The waves turned still. Then it was over. We were over.

Looking back, I wanted to know what I did wrong. What I did to deserve such ignorance from you. But, I soon realized that it wasn't me. It was you. You were the one who had problems, and I was just one of the casualties.

I don't understand how people like you can leave someone so easily without full closure. How were you able to walk away so easily? Was it even love? All these empty promises you made suddenly meant nothing.

Everyone wants closure in order for them to move on. But, I am learning now that I WANT closure, but do not NEED it. I don't need to hear a reason, because you've shown through your actions just what kind of man you are. An immature and confused coward.

Thank you. For showing me what it is like to have a relationship, and what it's like to deal with long distance. But more importantly, thank you for showing me what I didn't want in someone. I realized that I fell in love with the vibe, but not the person behind all of it. You hid behind your flaws, but now your flaws are all I see.

I deserved better. I deserve better. I will find better. I am someone who has been through a lot to get to where I am, and I am sure I can get past this. It hurts. Right now, it really, really does. But I have hope knowing that I can find a mature man one day. I have hope knowing that I am going through all of this for a reason, and that it will get better for me soon.

You're just a tsunami ruining everything in your tracks. I hope you realize the amount of emotional damage that you caused. Because every girl after me does not deserve to feel the same way I have.

You're a tsunami, yet you couldn't stand the rain.