To the boy that broke my heart,

I know you think that you have power over me, but I need you to know that you don’t. For a long time, I really struggled to move on without you. It’s really hard having someone leave your life randomly. For so long, I shared so much of my time with you. Our friends are the same. A majority of my memories have you in it. I hoped and hoped that one day I would turn around and not see you around the corner. You made me a monstrous person – someone I didn’t even recognize when I looked in the mirror. When I would see you, I would feel trapped. I was trying to move on, but I couldn’t.

Yeah, maybe for a long time I struggled. Getting your heart torn out of your chest really does hurt and it takes a lot of time to recover, but that doesn’t mean you have power over me. You BROKE my heart, but you have not BROKEN me. The way you treated me does not define my worth. I am great, strong, and funny and deserve to be treated that way. Now that I realize that, I am no longer bothered when I walk into a room and you are there. I am just fine.

I know what I deserve, and I know what you deserve too. Things may not have worked out for the two of us, but I do hope the best for you in your future. Just because you treated me in such a negative way, I know that you are a good guy deep down. Sometimes, two people, no matter how much they love each other, cannot be with one another. Maybe it was the time, or maybe it’s just that we both were not who we thought one another to be. Either way, I hope that you love someone eventually that loves you as much as you deserve. I hope you find someone who makes you so excited every time you walk in a room and see them. It may take a bit of time before you find that, but I want that for you.

I realize that in life, we all go through heartbreak. It was nothing personal, and it most certainly wasn’t either of our faults. Sometimes, relationships just don’t work under certain circumstances. The circumstances that we found ourselves in just wouldn’t permit it for us, and that’s okay. It's funny because I find myself having to thank you. Thank you for treating me so negatively. If it wasn't for you, I'd still be in cruddy relationship after cruddy relationship. You need to experience a rough patch sometimes in order for things to get better. If you hadn’t, I wouldn’t know what I actually deserve in a man. I deserve to be treated like a queen. We all do. Though you hurt me, thank you. You allowed me to put my heart into place.