To the boy who tried to break me.. I bet you are wondering if I am sitting here crying to my friends or sitting here crying in my room listening to sad songs to just keep me in this awful mood.. I bet you are wondering if I am up all night thinking about you, what you are doing, who you are doing, who you are with, etc. Sometimes those thoughts cross my mind but most of the time the thought that crosses it most is the guy who promised he would NEVER try to hurt me actually did.
So I want to thank you.. I want to thank you for trying to break me.. I want to thank you for teaching me so any lessons.. I want to thank you for teaching me what to look for in a man and what NOT to look for in a man.. I want to thank you for teaching me for seeing the way a woman should be treated.. I want to thank you for the way you made me trust you just to make it all go away the moment you lied and destroyed everything. I want to thank you for making me watch out for guys like you everywhere.
Because of you I will no longer want to trust anyone... Because of you I will no longer want to put my heart into anyone else.. Because of you I regret the opportunities I didn't take.. Because of you I missed out on people who probably could've given me the world.. Because of you I now know what to preach to my little sisters whenever they ask for boy advice when those days come.. Because of you I know how to handle hurt.. Because of you I gained a best friend.. Because of you I now relate to every Taylor Swift song not just a few...
I really loved you.. I knew that because I tried to hate you.. I am sure we have all been in the position where we have tried to hate the one we loved and we just couldn't.. We couldn't hate them even though they broke our heart.. They lied, they said they never would... They swore they wouldn't.. They looked you right in the eyes and said they could never do that to you because you meant the world to them....
Boys lie and that's okay sometimes... and it is okay to be upset.. It is okay to cry into your pillow because this boy tried so hard to break you.. He tried to see other girls and tried to intentionally make you jealous.. he tried telling you about them that they were better than you and that you would never be as good as them... He would tell you how horrible you were but listen you aren't. You are unique. You are beautiful. You can cry, you can scream as loud as you feel until you have lost that sweet voice of yours.
Take a second to look back at this boy... The boy who broke your heart.. in the future you will laugh at him.. You will literally laugh... He was probably thinking he was doing the right thing by hurting you and leaving but he just lost the best thing that had ever happened to him and he knows that...
You will thank him for leaving.. You will thank him for this heart break, it has made you stronger.. It has made your smile brighter, your eyes wider, your skin glow, and you saying to hell with that douche bag boy. You will appreciate what he did...
He taught you many things.. He taught you heart break but at one point he taught you love can be amazing and beautiful... He taught you it can scare you he taught you it will keep you up until all hours of the night crying thinking and wondering what you did to deserve this....
The sun will shine.. There will be plenty of beautiful days you will get to move on and meet someone in this crazy world who will show you every ounce of love you deserve.. Something will show up years down the road to remind that guy he wished he had stayed with you... You will forget you were hurt.. You will find love sweet girl.. You will find your happiness again.. You will find that wide eyed big smile.. You will find a full heart.. You will get your fairytale...
So to all the boys who are breaking our hearts we really do appreciate you for bringing us best friends, for teaching us lessons, for teaching us how we shouldn't be treated and for leaving and sending the right guys our ways. Thank you for once loving us or at least pretending to love us and for sending us the right guy down the road.
Thank you!
Keep your heads up ladies it only gets better
