I wish you could see the girl I get to see. I wish you could watch her cry because of constant confusion because you say one thing and do another. I wish you could understand how much you’re destroying one of the strongest girls I know with every kiss, with every call, with every word.
I know that a relationship either ends in marriage or memory. But if you’re going to end it, don’t keep coming back. Don’t chase her down, hug her and tell her you miss her. You’re only digging deeper into her open wounds you caused in the first place.
She trusts you with everything, and you’re taking advantage of that. You say that you don’t know what you want, yet continue to have endless contact with her after you make things officially over. You can’t stand to see her talking to another guy, yet you won’t claim her as your own.
Why is that? Why can’t you just let her go?
Everyone is going to go through relationships where they don’t end pretty or where there are bad experiences involved. It’s totally normal and a part of growing up. But, when you say, “I think I just want to be friends,” you’re committing to a friendship, no longer a romantic relationship.
For whatever reason, it seems like you’re doing the opposite.
Do you know how hard it is for me to watch one of my best friends be miserable after every time she hangs out with you? You were her first love. Of course, she’s not going to say no. No matter who tells her to, she just won’t believe it. I don’t know what keeps her going. She knows you’re taking advantage of her, and she knows that she’s not going to be happy in the end, but that’s not stopping her.
So, I guess what I’m saying here is that you’re hurting her. I know you care about her, and I know you only want the best for her, but you’re only doing her wrong.