To the next boy that loves me next,
To the boy that loves me next, I appreciate you. Im sorry my walls are built so high, it's simply for my own protection. But i hope you find the might to love all my insecurities, considering you will not meet one girl that doesn't have any. I hope you love my messy hair when I wake up and don't mind waiting for me to put my makeup on because it's something I'm passionate about. I hope you don't care to staying in, ordering pizza, and watching Disney movies with me all night, especially when it's cold. I hope you can put up with me complaining about how much I hate doing my homework and how much I miss my dogs because I go to college 3 hours away from home. I hope you don't judge me for the ugly snapchats I'll take to send to my friends or my FaceTime dates just to vent about something because it was too much to text.
To the boy that loves me next, i hope you can tolerate how crabby I can get sometimes, especially when I'm hungry... or can stand how difficult I can be sometimes, I get that from my momma. I hope you can stand my terrible singing in the car or the annoying pictures I'll draw on your windows in the winter when they get foggy. I hope you can stand the fact that when I laugh I cry, or how every time I take a step my foot cracks...also my obsession with buying clothes and makeup or how sometimes I can be really messy.
To the boy who loves me next, I hope you understand that my walls are built so high from my past. For being young still I feel like i have had my fair share of heart breaks... from cheating to being played, heart broken is an understatement. I tend to push people away a lot and not hand out my trust like i use to. It's not your fault trust me, sometimes i need some time to think so don't take it personally. I hope you can understand my past and realize why I am the way i am and not get mad when I don't let you in right away. I hope you understand how sensitive I am and just the littlest things will upset me... Considering I'm a really independent I hope you understand that sometimes I need space and my alone time, I promise it's nothing against you.
To the boy that loves me next, if you show me you care and are actually down for me you're likely to win me over. I hope you can look at me when I'm laughing so hard about nothing and you're able to think to yourself "Man I got lucky." I hope you're able to love my family as much as i do, and are able to bond with my brother. I hope you can get along with my best friend and love her just as much as i do. And I hope you can hug me so tight when I'm upset that it glues my broken heart back together.
To the boy that loves me next, when I love someone I love them with my whole heart. Please don't take that for advantage like everyone else has. I can promise you that when I'm comfortable with you and you have my trust I can offer you the world and so much more. I hope you fall in love with me, my flaws, my insecurities, and my craziness, and I hope you fall in love with the fact that I may drive you crazy sometimes but I promise you'll get use to it.
Lastly, I promise that i will love you with my whole heart. I promise that when things get tough we will be going through it together, you will never be alone. I promise that i will love all of your insecurities and flaws just as much as you love mine. I promise I will always be honest with you and that i will try to make you the happiest you've ever been. I promise that I will be right next to you until you don't want to be anymore. I promise that i will make sure that you never forget how much you mean to me and how much i actually care and appreciate you. And I promise that i will be there to love you, even when you don't love yourself.
Sincerely,
The girl that loves you next
