I remember distinctly in the fourth grade when we were walking in the hallway looking at you and thinking you were a pretty cool kid. Fast Forward four years later, and we were best friends. You were dating a crazy girl who lied to you, and I knew you could do better than her. I started to develop feelings for you, but my "best friend" stepped in the picture, and you two became an item until she moved away three months later. Come freshman year of high school, I got over you and found myself hung up on people that only wanted my body. Come sophomore year, you made me feel alive. You made me laugh so much, and we always had a great time together. It wasn't until you made it clear you were disgusted with the guy who abused me, and that's when I got hit with a wave of emotions for you once again.

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We spent our days and nights texting each other. We always hung out at the movies, at your house, or elsewhere. Your words, patience, and personality drew me in deeper than I ever intended on going. Usually, I am filled with doubt when it comes to the idea of me being in a relationship, but the night you wrapped me up in your arms from behind and put your arm around my waist, I really thought we were going to be something.

Flash forward to junior year, and our friendship became brutal. We fought constantly over the dumbest things, and I found myself on the bathroom floor crying most nights. On these nights, I found myself questioning how could this happen? What did I do? What's wrong with me? However, I realized the problem was not me, it was you.

You belittled me to boost your own ego. You told me I was delusional, crazy, and that I enjoyed being upset and furious all of the time. You told me you didn't care. These moments made me realize you knew nothing about me. I realized I deserved so much better than what our friendship was.

I thought you and I would go much farther in life than we did. I even had dreams of us living in a house together and waking up in the morning together. I had dreams of us just hanging out and you holding me. Today, I am glad those dreams stayed dreams.

Today I realize I am not crazy or delusional. I realize I have much more potential than what you gave me. I am not stupid like you told me I was, but I am a determined student and leader in what I take part in. I do not enjoy being upset and furious, I enjoy laughing until I cry with people who love me.

Come senior year, I just laughed at your attempts to remain friends with me and pretend like nothing ever happened. Once you hurt me, all of my trust and happiness with you vanished. I could not wait until graduation day when I would never see you again. It's been four months since I have last seen you, and I do not miss you.

I do wish you the best in whatever you do. I also forgive you for letting me down. Because of our painful fallout, I have become much stronger. You helped me realize I deserve so much better in my life, and I thank you for that. I hope that when you do find a girl you love you treat her properly and don't lead her on. I hope when she does fall for you that she does not spend a single night on the bathroom floor wondering what's wrong with her like I did.