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To The Toxic "Best Friend" In My Life

Some of the best decisions are the hardest.

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Some things aren't always meant to last forever in life. It's difficult when you have to end a chapter, but after time goes on you'll realize why you made the decision that you did. For me, that was our friendship. It came to a point where I could no longer take it and I needed a break. I hope you can understand that I have no hard feelings for you anymore, but I had to do what was best for me, although that meant distancing myself from you.

Although we don't talk anymore, I think about you often. I see updates on Facebook about your life and everything that you're up to and although there are times when I want to ask you how you are doing and reconnect with you I have to stop myself. I cannot reach out to you because that would ruin all the progress that I have made in my own life. So if you think that I despise you because I don't talk to you anymore, please don't. I don't hate you. I miss you. And although at times I want to go back to how we were, I know that I can't do that.

I cannot become friends with you again because then I would ruin all of the self-love and confidence that I never had when we were friends. Being "best friends" with you became toxic to me because I always doubted myself. I always cared about what we both would be wearing a certain day. I always cared about what guys thought about me due to them being the main topic of the conversations that you would have with me. I always cared about what others thought about me on social media because of all the picture re-takes that we had to take before one was labeled as 'worthy' to be posted. You taught me to care too much. You taught me to second guess myself. You taught me to be timid.

These lessons were not the only ones that you had taught me, you also taught me some things that I am grateful for. You taught me to laugh like there was no tomorrow. You taught me that it was okay to be weird in public. You were the person to watch movies with me until we both fell asleep. You were the person that would sing with me as we drove, even if my music taste wasn't the greatest.

You brought me happiness at one point in my life, and for that I am grateful. And though it is hard to say, we just weren't meant to last forever. You helped me at one point in my life just as I hopefully did for yours. I hope that you hold no hard feelings for me and that you'll always remember the memories that we made because some of them were great. I wish you nothing but the best in the future. Thank you for our friendship.

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