Meeting someone like you was honestly the work of some crazy, unknown forces. We literally had anything and everything in common. We would text for hours on end about how we were separated at birth, how the gods split us up and made us soul mates, and our future as a dynamic team using our talent and skills to work our way to the top. We didn't even let each other living 6+ hours apart stop our amazing friendship. We were #BestFriendGoals.

Then I had to go and mess things up.

There comes a point when you decide to reflect on what went wrong in the tragic end of our friendship, and I quickly realized that what went wrong was me. It's really hard for me to admit when I'm in the wrong, because, usually, I'm not. You know this. I know this. However, my conscience has been weighing heavily on me all summer and it drives me insane.

I was a bad friend. I ignored you when you needed to talk to your best friend, sometimes on accident, but still. You came home for a short time and I decided to spend time with people I always saw over you, which honestly makes no sense. I got jealous, I was dumb, I got angry over things you had no control over, and I made stupid decisions. I was a REALLY bad friend.

When you lose a friend who you spent countless hours talking to on a daily basis, your life seems a bit twisted. It's like it's missing something important, mainly because it is. That person who you could take turns venting to from midnight until 3am was gone. The person who could build you up in a matter of seconds, despite a horribly stressful day was nowhere to be seen. However, I lived in denial that I did anything wrong because my mind works in mysterious, silly ways at times.

I think what really drives me insane is how you must feel. I was the bad friend, and I feel horrible about it. Then I think, you HAD the bad friend. You must be pretty mad, in fact, I know you're mad. We're the same person, so I would be furious. It breaks my heart thinking I may have messed up things for good.

I really just wanted my best friend to know I'm sorry. I want to go back in time and do everything differently, but that's not possible. All I can do is hope to fix what went wrong. And use GIFs that would make you laugh when you read this.