From the girl who hates emotion and often struggles with expressing herself, a few words to some of the people who have made me who I am.
To the people who have given me everything. You've loved me unconditionally, accepted my flaws, and laughed at my mistakes. You've balanced being my best friends and my greatest mentors through this crazy thing called life. You've helped lead me to wherever I am, but always allowed for me to choose my own path. Over everything you have afforded me, I am most grateful for the fruitfulness of your love and the acceptance you always offer. Thank you for the unconditional love and constant support. Thank you for holding me when I cry and making me laugh until my cheeks hurt. No matter where I end up, I know you'll be right beside me. There are no words to express the way I love you.
To the crazy girl that accepts everyone. You're so often misunderstood, but those who know you feel your constant love and affection. Everyone around you can feel the excitement, sunshine, respect, and loyalty that you're able to radiate with only a smile. With a laugh that shakes the world, we all experience the girl you've become. Appreciating your sense of self and confidence comes easy as we watch you bounce of the walls. Your devotion to your loved ones is shining and beautifully portrayed. Know you're something special and deserve both the crazy and happiness that you provide everyone around.
To the boy who broke me. Even after the times you hurt me, left me in tears feeling like my life had simply crumbled around me, I can't hate you. I can't wish you would experience the horrors and embarrassment you exposed me to. I can't wish you would hurt the way I did so many times. I can't even wish you aren't happy. That's not me. I can only wish that you find something that changes your heart. I can only hope that wherever you go, you bring your potential, your charm and wit, and your heart that many often missed through all your mistakes. I can only pray you share the person I came to care for rather than the brutality of your hands and anger. To the boy who broke me, thank you for making me understand all that I deserve and showing me I'm so much more than a victim of an abusive relationship.
To the girl with the broken heart. I've watched you struggle through the years with the pain and angst that no one can truly fix. We've cried in the floor together, swore and yelled about the hellish truths of life, but more importantly, we've laughed and danced until the end of the night through it all. As everything around crashes, keep your infectious smile and funny dances. Keep the goodness in your heart, don't let him ruin you. Keep your self-worth and happiness that we all love you for. Believe in yourself and all that is to come, you deserve nothing less than someone to be all you have never dreamed of.
To the boy I love. It's been months since I've seen you, but I still remember every impression of your face, curve of your lips, and note of your laugh. Knowing your heart and the kindness you share without hesitation has been one of the biggest blessings. I wish happiness for you, your dream of traveling, and the great love of your life. I will always admire the way you desire such a fierce and solitary love. I am sorry I couldn't be that for you. I am sorry I could only love you the best I could, rather than the way you deserved. Trust the world and all it has to offer, even through the difficult times. This has always been hard for you, but living against the world through this insane life is no real sense of living. Find your solace and create the reality you so fully desire. Stop letting everything happen to you; do something, take control of your life. Be confident in the man you've become through the years - with a soul so beautiful and pure, you deserve all the happiness in the world. Wherever you are, just know I'll always carry you with me. I'll always love you.
