I miss you more than anything in this world. It's been nine years since you've been gone, but it felt like just yesterday I was holding your hand in your final days.

I remember the exact moment when everything changed. I had come home from hanging out with my friends and I went downstairs to tell my mom all the fun I had. After I went on and on about my day, that's when she told me that you were diagnosed with cancer. Leukemia.

I couldn't breathe. It felt like the whole world that I knew was completely thrown out from under me. My heart was shattered.

How could one of the strongest people I've ever met in my life, be weakened by this horrific disease?

Everything kind of blurs together during those times that you were going through chemotherapy and constant hospitalizations. The family tried a lot to protect us from seeing you in a different light.

You were my Bebop who I would go on bike rides with. You were my Bebop who would tell me I was the most amazing and special person on this earth. You were my Bebop who told me I was capable of anything that I put my mind to.

You were the man who showed every person compassion. You were the man who loved his family with all of his heart. You were the man who spread so much generosity and love to those you knew. You were the man who worked his butt off for his wife and kids. You were the most amazing man.

On your last few days, you were at home. I came to see you to say my last goodbye because we knew it was coming.

You were pale, weak, with dark circles underneath your eyes. A sight that was not my Bebop. You held my hand and told me how beautiful I was and how special I was. You wanted me to never forget that. Sobs and I love you's were the only thing that could come out of me.

I hold that moment with me always. You always believed in me. You are one of the main reasons why I pursued going to college. I knew that was very important to you.

I hope I am making you proud.

I miss you so much. Whenever the holidays come around or major life events happen, I always wish that you were here to experience them. That you were here so I could talk to you.

But I know that you are watching over the family and me. You are pain-free and I hope, very happy.

I love you so much, you will always be in my heart.