Sometimes your soulmate isn't a guy you met in High School, or even the man you're married to. Sometime's your soulmate isn't the boy you whisper you love to at three am, thinking his warmth wont ever fade. Sometimes, your soulmate is so much more. she could be your mom, or some teacher you met in 9th grade, or even your therapist. In my case, I call her my best friend.
You see, you'll know when you find them. Maybe you're sitting in your bedroom banging your head to Paramore, in the car on your way to the beach taking silly selfies, or sitting across from them at a restaurant arguing over bacon and french fries, and it just clicks. You look at them and think,holy crap I couldn't love another human being more than this. That's when you know. After nine years, I don't think a single thing could change how much she means to me. So this is to her, I love you goofball.
Nine years has gone by quick next to you, and I wish I could slow down time right about now so I could spend as much time with you as I possibly can before you move 3,000 miles away from me to start a new life. Even though I would rather lock you in my closet or kidnap you from your family and keep you all to myself, I know that this move is going to be the best thing you could possibly do right now, and I wish you nothing but the best in Arizona. But holy heck am I going to miss our one am binge watching Netflix Sessions, our three am "lets stay up and drink tea and gossip about boys", and baking entire boxes of brownies to sit in your room and devour them all in one sitting, then ordering pizza. I will never find another you, but that's okay because I am lucky enough to call you my best friend, and the memories we have made will stick with me until the end of time.
I want to thank you, for everything you've done for me. From teaching me wrong from right, supporting me in all ways possible, fan girling over all my articles, obsessing over my art, and pushing me to sing and make music as much as my heart desires to holding me when I cry, and giving me tickle rubs in the middle of the night because my mind won't relax. Thank you for saving me when I was being torn apart and standing by me when the worst days came. You've seen the worst parts of me and you've never given up, and that means more than anything. The world has shown me every reason to not trust, and not have faith, but you've shown me every reason to put trust, love, and faith into everything I do, because what's life without it?
I have never once in this world have someone as amazing as you, and I want you to know that no matter where this world takes us, no matter how far we are, or however many fights we get in, you are my soulmate and you will always have me. I know how rough things are, but remember, that this world will only ever be what you make it, so make it good. We're headed to bigger and better things, and I promise that soon the pain we know now won't even matter. Whatever you do in this life, never forget to smile, do at least one act of kindness a week, tell yourself your pretty every time you look in the mirror, give and love with your entire heart regardless of the situation, and to stop and stare at the beauty of the world every once in awhile.
Here is to our one am's, our shit talking, standing in the freezing cold handing out candy to nobody because the trick or treaters hated us, and making chicken parm subs at midnight. Heres to sleepover filled with pizza and crappy under cooked brownies, concert tickets, movie theater dates, doing our makeup like fools, spitting water in each others faces like it was normal, and sticking up for each other no matter what. I love you Savannah Royea,
Here's to forever.