To my ex-best friend,
I'be tried not to be bitter, but here we are. I wish I could thank you for teaching me a lesson and for the impact you had on my life, but we both know that is not possible. You left me when I needed you most and for that I am not thankful.
The sting of being replaced never dulls. Every time I see a picture of you and your new best friend I cringe because you both pretend I never existed. I know you though, and soon you'll do the same to her. I hate to say that I am waiting on it, but I am.
I'm left with countless memories I wish I could erase. I imagined our time at college to be together, creating more memories, but now I have new friends in college and when they ask me about my high school best friend I just tell them I never had one.
To be completely honest, there are still days I go to text you, and then I remember that you no longer care. You don't want to know what is going on in my life, yet here I am hating myself because I long to know what you're up to. I always cared more than you, but I never knew it would end up like this.
You haven't made me stronger, I did that all on my own. I had to teach myself how to survive all on my own because you ripped my support system out from under me as I went through the hardest time of my life. You looked the other way when I passed by.
The difference between you and I is that I'd never spill your secrets or use them as ammunition against you and yet you did it to me the second you got the chance. We used to say we were so similar, but I quickly found out we're the opposite.
I'm not thankful for the time we spent together, I'm actually quite upset I wasted so much time on you. You broke my heart more than any relationship ever could, even after you spent hours picking up the pieces on multiple occasions.
I won't pretend I don't miss you, but only know it's because I think I can fix people, but honey, you're too broken to be fixed and I've finally realized that is not my fault. It's not me, it's you.
Please, continue to live your perfect life without me, but when you finally need me, I won't be here. Be careful burning bridges, next time you might catch yourself on fire.
XOXO,
your old best friend,
no-longer support system,
used to be unbiological sister,
and former #1 fan.
