To My Best Friend Who I Physically Can't Be With,

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't be there to wipe away your tears and to distract you from the pain that seems to be consuming your entire body. I know exactly how you feel and if it was not for you I have no idea how I would have survived. My world came crashing down and there you were to pick it back up, carry it and put the pieces back together with me. We have gone through dark times with laughter and happy times with tears, thick and thin we have always had each other's back.

Now you need me and I cannot be there physically. There is only so much that I can say and it will never compare to the cuddle sessions in a tiny dorm bed watching Netflix between classes or the late night FaceTimes. I will never be able to be there for you the way that you were for me and I'm sorry. I would do anything to be with you right now, and when school starts back we have a lot of making up to do.

It's going to hurt for a long time but after a while, the immediate pain will fade away and it will be like coming up for fresh air. You will see him for who he truly is and for who he wasn't. You will slowly realize how poisonous he was to your existence and how much he took from you and how little was given in return. You will see what you were too blinded to realize.

You will learn a lot about love, a lot about yourself, and a lot about the past and future. You will learn what you deserve and what you do not, You will learn you are stronger than what you had previously thought. You will learn that it hurt like hell having the person that you love not hurting the way you are. He may or may not come back and say the things you desperately want to hear, but either way it is going to hurt. Please do not go back, do not continue a vicious cycle that is going to end up doing more harm than good. No matter what he says it does not take back what has happened or what will continue to happen.

I love you and will support you with whatever you decide to do with your life, just like you did for me. I will tell you exactly what I think and will be there to give the same tough love that you gave me. I will be ready to get the screenshots and the random texts messages about him. I will always be here, through thick and thin like I have always been. This will make you a stronger person and open your eyes to so many new things, this will change you for the best.

You're my best friend and I love you. Welcome back.