First of all, thank you. Thank you for all the nights you didn't sleep because I couldn't. Thank you for never actually walking away when I shut you out. Thank you for not letting the countless anxious days scare you away over the years.
I couldn't do this without you, life is hard and for me it's really scary. I need a strong back bone when I don't have one and you've always been just that. You keep my feet on the ground and you love me through hating myself at times which I can't imagine is easy.
You've never judged me and that means more to me than you will ever know. You have seen me at both ends of my spectrum and remained my best friend any way. You're the first person to sit with me in silence and understand that I don't want to talk and that speaks more to me at times than any word could.
You're stronger than I am. My burden is mine to carry but you've made it yours as well and you carry it better than I ever could on my own. You've taught me to lay a strong foundation with the bricks life throws at me and you've helped me every step of the way.
I'm selfish and I know that. I need you and I just expect you to be there. I take you for granted when I shouldn't. I often don't realize how lucky I am to have someone who always knows exactly what to do to help me. People like me don't get people like you very often and even if I can't show it all the time, I appreciate your love and support more than you could ever know.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I've made you worry about me and that I can't always communicate things to you. I'm sorry that I am the way I am and that it weighs on you. I'm sorry I can't change it and I hope you know that if I could I would. I'm sorry if I ever make you regret sitting next to me in first grade, and I hope you know that I never could.
So again, thank you. Thank you for fighting what seems like a never ending battle alongside me and for never resenting me for hiding behind you. Thank you for never asking me why I am the way I am, and for never asking me to change. Thank you for being my good side when I feel like I don't have one.
I love you and appreciate you, now and always.
