Every girl has been through this a time or two in her life. Taylor Swift says it best in the song “You Belong With Me.” She talks about having a crush on the boy next door. You're dreaming in the distance hoping he might love you back someday. You might see him at school, at work, or just in the streets, but every time you catch a glimpse of his eyes your heart skips a beat. Girl, you are not alone. Here is my letter I will never send to the boy I secretly love:

Dear Boy,

The first day I met you was the day I fell in love. That Friday night, your eyes shined through lenses. I caught a glimpse and smiled at you... so young, so innocent, so incredibly perfect. In that moment, I knew you had a heart to give and to love. Every time I see you, I secretly die a little inside because you’re so handsome, even though you disagree.

We drove up to the park one day, expecting such a beautiful view. You were disappointed, but how could I be if I was sitting next to you? Snapchat stories and rap music; you laugh and it’s the most beautiful sound I’ve ever heard. Thanks for all the fun times we have had together, from driving around in the middle of the night to dancing around our friend’s apartment. I can’t help but think every one of those moments meant a little more to me than they did to you. I know that you notice me, but why would you ever want to be more than friends? And here we are again living life and working our days away.

Side by side we go, head first into the deep end. I sat and listened as you talked about her loving smile and ignorant ways. She had everything that I had to live without. I wonder if she ever knew how lucky she was to have you. Your sweet soul and big heart shattered as she tore them apart. You have been through a lot of hard times in your life, and I know that. I want to be by your side through everything. Whether I give you a shoulder or a hand, I will be there. I sit back, loving you from a distance, yet I am right by your side and I always will be. My heart skips a beat when I hear your name and I begin to dream of a first kiss, and it’s really something. I would tell you all of these things if I knew it wouldn’t break our friendship. I love our friendship, but I want more. We have come a long way from that very first day, but I will never lose myself in loving you.

Love,