4 years. 48 months. 1,460 days.

When we head off to college, many people think that they know exactly what their major will be, which classes they will take, and what they want to be outside of college. Everyone says that those four years fly by and I believe it; it’s even hard for me to believe that I’m already in my second year.

These past couple of weeks I have been thinking of what I want to do after college and to be honest, I have absolutely no idea. There are some days where I wish that I knew what I wanted to do with my major and that I could give people a definite answer when they ask what I want to do after school. I wish that things were planned out and that I knew what the future will hold.

I came into school thinking that I knew what I wanted to do, where I wanted to live, and who I wanted to be. Little did I know that that would slowly change.

With internships looming and professors emailing reminding us about requirements, I can’t help but think that I don’t truly have an answer as to what I want to do with my life.

I’ve always been that type of person who likes to imagine how things will happen before they actually happen. I can’t help it. I make myself worry when I don’t need to, and I over think even the smallest of things.

If there’s anything I’ve been trying to remind myself of these past few days it is to just take a deep breathe, and stop for a moment. Stop worrying about school or due dates or meetings or about when I’ll be home next or that if everything I’m doing will help me in the long run.

Despite all the uncertainty, I’m enjoying the time to just explore. I’m forcing myself to step outside of my comfort zone to find that things that I’m passionate about. I’m learning to speak up and take leadership roles where I never would have thought myself to be capable of.

To be honest, I’m writing this article not to sound whiny, but to help myself realize that it’s okay to not know what you want to do. There’s so much pressure today on students to get a good job right out of college; it can be hard to not be sure of what the future may hold. But if anything, that’s part of the excitement of college.

So yes, for anyone in the same position as me, enjoy the moment, embrace the journey; I may not know exactly what I want to do, but I’m learning to be okay with it.